Playing catch up
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brightbluegirlNew years Eve was ok - at Andrew's parents, we hung out and talked, and we ate yummy things, and had a couple of drinks, and at midnight we all had a snowball fight. It was fun!
The whole visit with his folks was pretty good. They never leave each other alone, they're always hanging out with each other, so I had NO alone time. Not to mention we still have to sleep in separate beds, and I had extremely odd dreams every night. (I think it was all the weird and rich food I ate) And on Friday night Andrew and I both had extreme allergic reactions to something, but I don't know what. My entire lower face and all my neck got a big red itchy rash. I'm feeling better, but my skin is all dry and scaly and still a little red, as a result. Every day it's a little better, but still -- yikes.
His parents were pretty laid back, I guess I was more laid back than our first meeting as well. At times I felt like I was constantly doing something wrong or acting wrong, and I struggled to just relax (yes, struggled to relax, I'm something else, aren't I?) and let things go as they do. I think overall it went well, and every visit will be better. Or at least, that's what I hope.
Andrew's mother is going to let me learn how to can from her this summer, which I'm quite excited about. And she gave me lots of great tips about sewing, and we talked a lot about the ceremony, so she gave me some good ideas for that, including 3 different venues I'm going to check out this week. We had great talks about cooking, and she let me go through all her fabrics and take whatever I wanted - I can see that we'll have all kinds of safe things to talk about in the future - cooking, sewing, quilting, reading, etc.
As far as my diet...
I did the exact things I didn't want to do - I didn't exercise very much, I ate FAR too much, I even ate MEAT. For almost the whole time at Andrew's parents house, I felt really odd - my body wasn't agreeing with the rich meaty food I ate, never mind the cookies and other things I put into my body (cherries jubilee, lemon mousse cake, spanish cream, etc etc... his mother made dessert EVERY NIGHT! plus cookies, of course)
It's a relief to be back on my diet. It's really nice to be eating healthy food, to know exactly how many calories I'm eating, to know that I'm working out, and to not feel any guilt. It's a real relief.
I don't know how much I gained over the holiday. I'm afraid to step on the scale, because not only did I overeat, not to mention WHAT I was eating, but my period is going to start any day now, and I know far too much about my body and water retention. I have decided that I will weigh myself on Saturday, or maybe Sunday, and go from there.
Being honest with myself, I know I do things to excess. I ate far more than I needed to, over the whole holiday. I was practically cramming things into my mouth, and eating just because I wanted to feel it. But no matter what I find out on Saturday, I'm still much lower than my original weight that started me on this diet path, and that is just going to have to be good enough.
An interesting thing happened over the time off that reminded me that often, I don't join in completely. I seem to hold myself reserved. Perhaps, at some point, it was safer to do that, and then it became a habit? Or maybe I get so caught up in stress it's hard to let go?
It could possibly be just that - the "holding back" that is holding me... well... back from many things. From being able to really relax, from enjoying sex more, from who knows what. So I'm keeping it in mind. I'm keeping it all in mind. I think it helped yesterday, if I can, I'll even treat this as a resolution for the year - "join in the fun".
I'll be sure to keep you all posted.
It's supposed to SNOW again tomorrow here! A big blizzard, they say. Yuck. I'm thinking of working from home. I'm NOT a fan of this weather at all. If it were up to me, I'd work from home through the whole winter. I hear it's quite nice over there, how come the winter weathers have switched! Not fair, I moved here cuz of the mild winters!!
Ah well.
The whole visit with his folks was pretty good. They never leave each other alone, they're always hanging out with each other, so I had NO alone time. Not to mention we still have to sleep in separate beds, and I had extremely odd dreams every night. (I think it was all the weird and rich food I ate) And on Friday night Andrew and I both had extreme allergic reactions to something, but I don't know what. My entire lower face and all my neck got a big red itchy rash. I'm feeling better, but my skin is all dry and scaly and still a little red, as a result. Every day it's a little better, but still -- yikes.
His parents were pretty laid back, I guess I was more laid back than our first meeting as well. At times I felt like I was constantly doing something wrong or acting wrong, and I struggled to just relax (yes, struggled to relax, I'm something else, aren't I?) and let things go as they do. I think overall it went well, and every visit will be better. Or at least, that's what I hope.
Andrew's mother is going to let me learn how to can from her this summer, which I'm quite excited about. And she gave me lots of great tips about sewing, and we talked a lot about the ceremony, so she gave me some good ideas for that, including 3 different venues I'm going to check out this week. We had great talks about cooking, and she let me go through all her fabrics and take whatever I wanted - I can see that we'll have all kinds of safe things to talk about in the future - cooking, sewing, quilting, reading, etc.
As far as my diet...
I did the exact things I didn't want to do - I didn't exercise very much, I ate FAR too much, I even ate MEAT. For almost the whole time at Andrew's parents house, I felt really odd - my body wasn't agreeing with the rich meaty food I ate, never mind the cookies and other things I put into my body (cherries jubilee, lemon mousse cake, spanish cream, etc etc... his mother made dessert EVERY NIGHT! plus cookies, of course)
It's a relief to be back on my diet. It's really nice to be eating healthy food, to know exactly how many calories I'm eating, to know that I'm working out, and to not feel any guilt. It's a real relief.
I don't know how much I gained over the holiday. I'm afraid to step on the scale, because not only did I overeat, not to mention WHAT I was eating, but my period is going to start any day now, and I know far too much about my body and water retention. I have decided that I will weigh myself on Saturday, or maybe Sunday, and go from there.
Being honest with myself, I know I do things to excess. I ate far more than I needed to, over the whole holiday. I was practically cramming things into my mouth, and eating just because I wanted to feel it. But no matter what I find out on Saturday, I'm still much lower than my original weight that started me on this diet path, and that is just going to have to be good enough.
An interesting thing happened over the time off that reminded me that often, I don't join in completely. I seem to hold myself reserved. Perhaps, at some point, it was safer to do that, and then it became a habit? Or maybe I get so caught up in stress it's hard to let go?
It could possibly be just that - the "holding back" that is holding me... well... back from many things. From being able to really relax, from enjoying sex more, from who knows what. So I'm keeping it in mind. I'm keeping it all in mind. I think it helped yesterday, if I can, I'll even treat this as a resolution for the year - "join in the fun".
I'll be sure to keep you all posted.
It's supposed to SNOW again tomorrow here! A big blizzard, they say. Yuck. I'm thinking of working from home. I'm NOT a fan of this weather at all. If it were up to me, I'd work from home through the whole winter. I hear it's quite nice over there, how come the winter weathers have switched! Not fair, I moved here cuz of the mild winters!!
Ah well.
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Date: 2004-01-05 01:56 pm (UTC)Sounds like you depleted your stomach yin. This can happen with rich foods, spicy foods, too much foods, overstimulation, and with an underlying systemic yin deficiency.
The stomach meridian runs up the throat and into the lowr half of the face, and your symptoms seem to be showing a lot of heat and dryness (this happens when there is not enough yin to lubricate). I also wonder if the cherries were the preserved kind, as they often contain some pretty heavy duty chemicals that meny people have reactions to.
The holding back relates to the liver, but if there is a systemic yin deficiency, the liver would also be yin deficient. Be careful of frustration. Be sure to be aware that it comes from your own organs more than your environment.
Its a good idea to eat light for awhile. Rice porridge (congee) and bland bland bland foods. also keep well hydrated. Pear Juice is great to boost yin.
Hope things get better quick.
sending you love.
Maat
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Date: 2004-01-05 02:23 pm (UTC)The cherries were fresh, because she knows I eat organic foods and am sensitive to chemicals. But all the other stuff, the sweets and rich foods and meat and overstimulation, I'm thinking check, check, check.
That thing about frustration really gave me pause, though. I find myself getting frustrated at odd times - even before the holidays. I may well have a systemic yin problem. How would I know for sure?
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Date: 2004-01-05 04:52 pm (UTC)Liver chi stagnation is a popular pattern. It is experienced as a tightness in the rib cage (on the right), periodic mood swings, depression (more dissapointment than sadness), perfectionism, wanting to have control over one's environment or self, menstrual cramps, clots in the menses, emotional outbursts (rising liver yang, or liver fire), stiffness (especially in the tendons), craving for sweets, etc. etc.
It happens to everyone from time to time, and in some people more than in others. Emotional stress is a major factor, especially if one's parents show a similar pattern, or if there was a period of extreme emotional stress in early childhood.
The best thing to do is to is to gt lots of cardio-vascular exercise and stretch as often as you can. especially the inner legs. You remember all those really painfull stretches from karate to get your legs into the splits? well thats the one, but dont strain, just relax into it.
As for the yin thing, rest helps, as do fluids, as does regular meditation.
but that's enough for now. If you're serious, see if you can get blue cross to pay for an acupuncturist (or shiatsu therapy!!)
Sending you love
Maat
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Date: 2004-01-05 02:23 pm (UTC)*hug*
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Date: 2004-01-05 04:16 pm (UTC)also andrews mother sounds like a pretty neat lady to hang out with :)
it sounds like they like you very much :)
take care pretty girl
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Date: 2004-01-06 09:59 am (UTC)