watch out - whining ahead

[brightbluegirl]

e watched The Full Monty last night. I love that movie. Andrew hadn't seen it, although I had. We both enjoyed it.

It's a sweet movie.

Anyway. I was going to do a full workout yesterday, but I still wasn't feeling up to par. Still had a big headache, funny tummy, and was kinda shaky. It was also my first full day at work all week, so I didn't want to overdo it.

As a salve to my wounded self esteem, I did 30 minutes on the ellipse at the beginning of the movie, and made sure to do a full session of stretches.

Since I felt shaky after just those 30 minutes of ellipse, I guess it was good that I stopped.

Although, silly me, I got Andrew to make vegan brownies for dessert, and we ate the ENTIRE PAN last night. He ate more than I did, but I still ate too much.

I'm about ready to write off this week. After all, tomorrow is a lunch with work (to celebrate the release of the shit product), and Saturday is Valentines Day. Not that we're doing anything more special than making a dinner together, but still.

And I really want some Hickory Sticks.

Those 2 lbs I was so excited about losing last week? They're back on.

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One of the people on my friends list has lost 160 lbs in the last year. And I'm so crazy happy for her.

But I can't help but think - DAMN. I lost 21 lbs last year. Big freaking deal! And not only that, but I only have 11 lbs to go to my goal, how come I can't settle down and just fucking get it over with?

I mean, really.

On the other hand, I'm pretty healthy, overall. I DID lose weight, and I'm keeping it off. I mean, if it takes me another 6 months to lose that weight, at least I'll have lost it.

Except, of course, that will put me at AUGUST, which is AFTER the ceremony, which DOES matter. And it just shouldn't take that freaking long. It's 11 measly pounds. I need to suck up and just fucking work at NOTHING ELSE for 2 months, MAXIMUM, and it'll fucking come off.

I'm such a wuss. Such a whiny baby. "Ohh I want a sweet oh I want sushi oh I want to eat eat eat Oh I don't feel like working out Oh I'm tired wah wah wah!!!"

bleh.

I'll start on Sunday.

Comments

[malaka.livejournal.com]

Heh it's totally my fault that I don't lose weight either. I'm the one that suggests all the "bad" foods. You can do it, you just have to up your cardio time to 45 minutes everyday. Can you do it?
I did that at one point, and I lost 85 pounds in a year. Now why can't I do it now? Maybe because I'm happier with the way I look than I used to be. Maybe because I'm lazy!

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[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Actually, my cardio time is already 60 minutes, unless I'm lifting weights on the same day, then I do 30 minutes.

I only did 30 minutes and no lifting yesterday because I wasn't feeling well and didn't want to overdo it. :(

I think I just need to buckle down and go back to my original - absolutely no sugar, no white carbs, 1500 cal, and of course, the 6 day workout. I'll do it for a month, then take a day or two off, then do another month.

*sigh*

but it just sounds so HARD. No fair!

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[malaka.livejournal.com]

Oh I didn't know you were doing cardio everyday. I was doing 45-60 minutes 7 days a week back when I was actually losing weight. I guess now that we're actually closer to our goals we have to work harder because our bodies want to hold on to the baby supporting fat ;)

Don't worry, it'll come. It's not hard because after you do it for a few days it starts to show and thus makes it worth it... right? :)

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[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Heh Heh. It takes a lot for me to notice on myself. At least now pictures of me make me cringe because I'm making stupid faces, not because I look horribly fat. :P

It's worth it, I know. *sigh*

As of Monday people are going to hear nothing but boring diet stuff for 28 days! I hope you'll all be able to handle it. :(

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[malaka.livejournal.com]

It's not boring to me! I'm with ya.. totally, 100% on the wagon!

[sinndar.livejournal.com]

That last 10 lbs is always the hardest. Or so I hear. And so far, that's been true for me. I lost 50 lbs since I had the baby (20 of it was baby) but I CANNOT seem to budge now that's I've got 10 or 15 to go. Of course I've been super lazy so that probably has something to do with it. I'll start Monday. ;)

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[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Heh. Yeah, it's the laziness that's killer.

Well, I'm starting on Monday too, so we can be back-on-the-wagon partners!