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[brightbluegirl]

I'm working hard, but I could be working harder.

I could be doing more at work. I could be showing more initiative, and working faster.

I could be working out harder. I could be adding more exercises, spending more time.

I could be dietting more strictly.

I could be painting more, sewing more, writing more.

I could be relaxing less.

I feel like a failure.

Comments

[bethie8888.livejournal.com]

None of those "could be/should be's" makes you a failure. You do the things you do when you're ready for them.

NOW, I challenge you to make a list of the things you *are* doing and compare the two. Because every time I read your journal you sound like you have a full roster of things you're working on right now. And maybe it doesn't include what's on that list but it doesn't make it any less important.

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Heh.

Thanks Beth, you rock.

I think the thing for me is that I was taught that a moment relaxing is a moment "wasted", and a moment wasted is a moment you can never get back. And I grew up in an extremely busy household, where my mother went to school part time, owned her own business, created and chaired a major women's committee, and then did all the other things she had to do in a day.

And I'm not quite living up to that, by choice, by laziness. Or at least, that's what it feels like - laziness.

[bethie8888.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling - I suffer from the same. If I take a day and do "nothing" I feel lazy and out of control. Mind tricks, eh?

[bitterlawngnome.livejournal.com]

What she said, absolutely. How about judging yourself by the same compassionate standard you judge other people? Don't you think you deserve as much as you'd give someone else?

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. I guess I don't. Thanks for putting it that way. I've got a lot to think about.

[malaka.livejournal.com]

I was just having this conversation with a friend. How I can't do everything right, all the time. It's a bit frustrating. Sometimes I work out hard and I slack at work. Sometimes I'm on top of my schoolwork but weak with my exercise and real work. It's difficult to balance it all. But you know what? We ARE balancing it.. because we're doing it.

When you think you're a failure, look at all those people who aren't doing any of it. You're awesome, you're doing a little bit of everything.

Where to go from here, increase how hard you work at everything.. just a tad.

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Yeah. The thing is, the stuff I really want to increase in my life is the home stuff. The sewing, the painting, the writing, later, the canning, the quilting, etc. But I'm stopped by my own fear of failure and my own overactive need for perfection in everything I do.

Andrew and I made a date for whatever night I take off working out tonight, for me to work on the couch-cover I'm making. I fell asleep planning how I'm going to make the ties on it.

[a-narchist.livejournal.com]

I still believe that relaxing focuses you and allows you to do all the things you want.


You are not a failure. If you were, that would mean that I was. And I'm not. You are waffle.

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

thanks bhunny. I love you tons.

[a-narchist.livejournal.com]

I love you too.