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[brightbluegirl]

I had a horrifying asthma attack last night. We were in bed, I'd been sleeping for a while, and BOOM I got hit with an attack that went on, and on, and on, and on.

I finally grabbed my (now expired) inhaler, and took a couple of puffs. And then, of course, from the drug and the attack, my heart was going so damn fast. It was horrible.

Looking back on it, there were several warning signs, small attacks, earlier in the evening. I could have medicated any one of those, and chances would have been a lot better that I'd have slept through the night without that bad one.

I just hate using my inhaler. I hate feeling like I'm victimizing myself (this is not a statement to anyone else who needs inhalers) by attaching myself to something like this. I prefer to think of myself as healthy, you know? I just want to make sure that I'm not causing my own weakness with negative thinking.

But no, it was definitely a bad attack last night.

I need to go to my doctor and get a new prescription for my inhaler. And if I continue feeling sick over the weekend, I should probably meet with her asap to make sure I'm ok.

Although, I'm sure you'll all be happy to know, that even though my inhaler expired on Dec 2002, it worked just fine! Heh.

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Andrew is going to meet with the carpenter's union people today. I'm excited! He must be nervous, I adore him so much, I hope he's ok.

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I really need to post about work. That'll have to be a protected entry.

Comments

[aibrean-owl.livejournal.com]

I feel similarly about taking medication as you feel about your inhaler. I'm glad it worked though :)

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

I believe that for intelligent, introspective people, there should be no shame in doing what we need to do to be the best US we can be.

Sometimes, though, I fear that I am still who I was as a teenager, and I worry that I am making things up. So I test my hypothesis to make sure. Heh. Sometimes that works... but no, I really am hypoglycemic, I really do have asthma, and I just have to chill.

[mel-nic.livejournal.com]

Oh man...I'm sorry! Otis and Nic are asthma-sufferers, Otis more than Nic. He can't go a night without a few puffs from his inhaler. I think it's partly because we sleep so close to the ground (airbeds) and because we have cats in the house again. It doesn't help, however, that he still smokes. More now than he did, before.

I remember the last bad attack he had. He could barely walk and his lips started to turn blue. That's some scary sh**, man.

Take care of yourself, please.

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

thanks Mel, I appreciate it.

It's a fine line between taking care of myself and being a wuss. Or at least, in my own head. I always think I'm being a wuss. Heh.

Last night I puffed before it got that bad, and I'm glad to say that it helped.

It's funny, I've always used my asthma as a reason that I don't smoke. "want a smoke?" "no thanks, my lungs just can't take it" what with all the scarring they have from a bad bronchitis/pneumonia thing I had in University, and the asthma... I'd be a fool to smoke (cigarettes OR pot).

[youmns.livejournal.com]

That's so scary; I can't imagine how you must have felt. I'm very glad to hear that you're okay, though... How're you doing now? Have you seen your doc yet?

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

no, I'm being silly. I'm going to wait some extra days before I make an appt. I'm doing better, the inhaler is working, and I just want a few days of semi-normalcy, instead of having to go to the doctor again, you know?

Thanks for the note. :)

[pennycuts.livejournal.com]

Ugh i sure know how horrible that feels. I hope your getting better.

I hate meds too, inhalers included. ANd i had one ten yrs ago, and i remember using it only , once or twice when absolutely needed.

I have also only used my new one once. I am thankfull i have it though.
Feel better (((HUG)))