When my intelligence is insulted, I get really angry. It seems to be the last thing that I am able to shrug off.
I don't know why that is. Perhaps I equate my intelligence more closely with my self?
Or perhaps it's just an ego thing.
Either way, I wrote a very nasty entry about how angry I was, but I never posted it. It's for the best, really.
Sometimes, I wonder if the way I speak and write is that insipid that people think I'm not that bright, and need explicit guidance without a formal query from me.
Perhaps I need to work harder at writing entries that are clear, concise, and intellectual.
Except there's no way in hell I'm going to do that, because I do this damn thing as an EMOTIONAL OUTLET.
And in case anyone forgot - emotional people can be intelligent and strong too. Emotion is not weak, nor does emotional equate with 'lacking forethought' or 'unable to make decisions' or 'incapable of objectivity' or 'unreasoning' or any other negative connotations.
Yeah.
Still a little irritated.
I don't know why that is. Perhaps I equate my intelligence more closely with my self?
Or perhaps it's just an ego thing.
Either way, I wrote a very nasty entry about how angry I was, but I never posted it. It's for the best, really.
Sometimes, I wonder if the way I speak and write is that insipid that people think I'm not that bright, and need explicit guidance without a formal query from me.
Perhaps I need to work harder at writing entries that are clear, concise, and intellectual.
Except there's no way in hell I'm going to do that, because I do this damn thing as an EMOTIONAL OUTLET.
And in case anyone forgot - emotional people can be intelligent and strong too. Emotion is not weak, nor does emotional equate with 'lacking forethought' or 'unable to make decisions' or 'incapable of objectivity' or 'unreasoning' or any other negative connotations.
Yeah.
Still a little irritated.
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Date: 2004-12-03 06:37 pm (UTC)Don't know how you speak, but your writing is indicative of someone with a keen intellect and deep understanding of their environment.
Illigitimus Non Carborundum, Dude!
EMOTIONAL OUTLET
Damn straight! LJ is a part of my pressure valve. I started it to keep in touch with my existing friends, to make new friends, and to have a forum where I could speak my mind about what I'm feeling or thinking at any particular time.
Sadly, my ex reads my LJ and I refuse to go "friends only", so every time I express anything but total competence and rock-steady feelings, she freaks out... I've been contemplating going "friends only", but I am a pig-headed SOB and think it will benefit all concerned more in the long term if I don't crawl under a rock because of it.
In other words... keep on postin'...
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Date: 2004-12-03 08:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-04 04:04 pm (UTC)and i think you sound really intelligent from your entries so there.
:)
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Date: 2004-12-04 10:44 pm (UTC)Perhaps you could try not to equate advice (even stupid advice) with doubt of your intelligence, but only people feeling like they want to get involved somehow and be helpful?
Wait... Dammit! I just gave you advice!
FUCK!
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Date: 2004-12-05 03:11 am (UTC)Yeah, most of the time I can shrug it off and thank the person for their concern. But sometimes, I just need the frustration to spill out. A cleanse, of sorts, so I can stop thinking about it. It's better in the journal, no names attached, then in a vile email, or in person, neither of which is relationship-healthy.