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[brightbluegirl]

I have been in the deepest funk I can remember, for the last month. I don't know what's up. Everything is hard. Working out is hard, sleeping is hard, talking... everything.

Last night I cried and rocked and cried and rocked, and Andrew held me and said sweet things to me.

Today I feel the same.

I went for a run... but didn't run much. I mostly walked. The beauty of the cotton from the cottonwood trees floating through the air made me want to cry.

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I start back work on the 30th.

This will give me purpose, and give us ~300 extra dollars coming in for the month - which is a VERY good thing.

It means moving may be harder, but that's ok. We'll figure it out. A weekend here, a weekend there...



Sorry, I'm not commenting much. I'm reading, I'm caring, but the effort to type something to you is too much.

Comments

[malaka.livejournal.com]

the 30th being monday? have you been off for 2 months already?

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

yep. hard to believe, isn't it? It went really fast.

[malaka.livejournal.com]

damn, REALLY fast.

[sinndar.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear that you are in a funk. Maybe you are just not cut out for sabaticals. I'd probably start thinking too much too. *hugs*

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

heh. nah, that would be easy, but that's not what it is. I took a sabbatical a few years back, when I met Andrew... when I met him I was in month 3, and thrilled to be alive. So it's not that...

[zaftigvegan.livejournal.com]

aw, pretty lady. you deserve happiness always. i'm sorry you're feeling so blue.

here's a crazy thought: maybe you are one of those strange people that NEEDS to work to be happy?!!!

i don't know anything about that, but it did occur to me.
;)

<3

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

that would be easy, but that's not what it is, unfortunately (fortunately?)

When I met Andrew, I was on sabbatical, and it was my 3rd month, and I was a very happy girl. So I tend to think that's not it.

It's probably just a number of things.

[zaftigvegan.livejournal.com]

but i thought you were working in a comic book store then?
anyway, i hope you figure out what the "number of things" are and can slay them with your mighty sword of thing-slaying.

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

actually, yeah, when we meet, it was my second shift... but I was working 1 day a week, and it was for fun. I was still on EI, and just had always wanted to work in a comic book store. So it wasn't work.

I'm feeling better now! Well, except for a headache. I think I was just overdramatizing it a bit, because I was feeling so down yesterday and this morning. I doubt I've been feeling quite that bad all the time.

[sistore.livejournal.com]

Awww, I'm sorry you're feeling down. *HUGS*

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

thanks!

[asimplelife.livejournal.com]

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[e-kick.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you are in this funk. Get out there but don't push yourself or feel bad for not feeling 100%. These slumps happen. I just hope it doesn't last long for you. (((hugs)))

awwwwwww

[hokahey.livejournal.com]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((lisa))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

*sends love*

[loesaurus.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you are in the middle of a downtime. (((BIG HUGS)))

[ambeaux.livejournal.com]

HUG