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brightbluegirlLast night Andrew and I worked out on our new weight bench with our new weights, and it took us **2** hours, and we didn't even do biceps or triceps. We stopped because we were just too tired and hungry. We each worked out for an hour, I figure. It just took twice that because we couldn't each do one thing while we were waiting for the other person to finish something. We had to do it one at a time. Plus, we were getting used to putting the weights on the machine between sets. Still, two hours is too long.
I was incredibly cranky. Stress, probably, but it makes me feel like a bad person when I snap at Andrew. I apologize to him, but I'd rather not do it at all. He doesn't deserve it! I was super duper incredibly cranky last night, and even this morning. I think it's because I'm starting to resent having to work every day. Not that I'm resenting Andrew, because I'm not. I'm resenting the situation. I don't like the whole "work 5 days a week until you die" regime anyway, and to get stuck in it because we're having trouble with money because he can't work right now... well, that sucks.
And speaking of which - he found out for sure yesterday that he won't be going back to the cafe. The owner just wants to stay on the straight and narrow for awhile, because he doesn't want to get in shit. And we understand - that guy is so nice, we don't want him screwed over. But now we're scrambling. At this rate, we won't be able to afford leaving. I've asked work about outside of the box ways of hiring Andrew (Andrew is SO good at thinking outside the box, he came up with the idea that he volunteers here and they give me a raise. They said they'd rather pay him cash - not that they've agreed to anything yet.) I'm asking around - a couple of coworkers are trying to think of who they know who could hire Andrew. And, although we hate to think of it... Andrew could go back to Canada early, sleep on someone's couch and get a job there for 5 months or so.
This morning I was too tired to bike in to work. I took the bus. I think we're going to go for a walk tonight instead. Hopefully after a couple of weeks I'll be able to lift weights at night AND still bike in every morning. This is, after all, one of my most important goals right now.
That and surviving monetarily. You know, all that stuff that is giving me major stress nowadays.
I was incredibly cranky. Stress, probably, but it makes me feel like a bad person when I snap at Andrew. I apologize to him, but I'd rather not do it at all. He doesn't deserve it! I was super duper incredibly cranky last night, and even this morning. I think it's because I'm starting to resent having to work every day. Not that I'm resenting Andrew, because I'm not. I'm resenting the situation. I don't like the whole "work 5 days a week until you die" regime anyway, and to get stuck in it because we're having trouble with money because he can't work right now... well, that sucks.
And speaking of which - he found out for sure yesterday that he won't be going back to the cafe. The owner just wants to stay on the straight and narrow for awhile, because he doesn't want to get in shit. And we understand - that guy is so nice, we don't want him screwed over. But now we're scrambling. At this rate, we won't be able to afford leaving. I've asked work about outside of the box ways of hiring Andrew (Andrew is SO good at thinking outside the box, he came up with the idea that he volunteers here and they give me a raise. They said they'd rather pay him cash - not that they've agreed to anything yet.) I'm asking around - a couple of coworkers are trying to think of who they know who could hire Andrew. And, although we hate to think of it... Andrew could go back to Canada early, sleep on someone's couch and get a job there for 5 months or so.
This morning I was too tired to bike in to work. I took the bus. I think we're going to go for a walk tonight instead. Hopefully after a couple of weeks I'll be able to lift weights at night AND still bike in every morning. This is, after all, one of my most important goals right now.
That and surviving monetarily. You know, all that stuff that is giving me major stress nowadays.
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Date: 2003-02-18 08:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-02-18 08:36 am (UTC)Like you said, these things happen. I know it'll all work out, it's just figuring out what to do to make it work out that stresses me out. I'm not very good at just letting things happen. I really need to chill out.