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[brightbluegirl]

I had a really good weekend. A really good weekend.

Saturday evening caric came over and we ate spinach lasagna and chatted and watched High Fidelity and Tapeheads and Velvet Goldmine, oh sigh sigh SIGH.

I had a really good time. High Fidelity is incredible, as I know I've said before. Tapeheads is funny, of course. Velvet Goldmine blew me away. There is just so much jam packed into it! He said it was dense, and he wasn't kidding. I look forward to seeing it again.

Sunday we did the usual bike ride for groceries, made pad thai, and did our leg workout. It was so gloriously nice out that we got to open all the doors and windows and just lay on the couch and breathe in the beautiful spring air. And we baked buns and bread. Huzzah for baking bread! If you've known me for awhile, you know I prefer to bake my own bread, but lately, probably the last 3 months, I haven't. Everything got just a little screwed up, what with Andrew not working and everything. You'd think that would give us more time to bake bread, but it seemed to screw up our regular patterns even so. But now we're back into it.

And next week - next week we're making poppy seed bread. MmmmmMmmmmmmmmMMMMMmm.

Monday we tried to get the H&R Block people do my taxes, but they didn't know how, so I had to make an appointment for NEXT monday at a different location instead. Which I didn't really mind, because it was another glorious day, so we went for a delicious 3 hour walk instead. We walked down to Nob Hill and went into stores and daydreamed.

I mean heavily daydreamed. I love dreaming like that. We talked about the house we're going to have built in BC, and the rooms in it and the hot tub and the garden. We talked about moving in August, and the decorating we want to do. We talked about going to IKEA when we still have the UHaul. We talked about money... we just talked about everything. It was glorious, with the sun shining down and the warm air, a slight breeze, a bottle of water, and the love of my life.

Afterwards we opened up all the doors and windows again, and let the kittens play outside while he read and I played with possible numbers for when we have moved, and we made DELICIOUS bacon cheeseburgers on our fresh baked buns and had tea and read, and did our stretches and then BOOM the day was done.

Yesterday was the kind of day that makes the job worth doing. It makes all the striving worth while. It was terrific. It was a day with its own sparkles.

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I'm tweaking my eating plan again. I've decided to eat 2400 calories every Monday, and have 1700 calories maximum otherwise. I just found it too difficult to eat 1300 or 1500 calories, and my blood sugar kept getting screwed up. I just have to be careful. I'm still biking before eating, though. If this doesn't work, I may move down to 1600, or even 1500 for Non-Mondays. We'll see. After all, I have a goal to reach.

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I'm re-reading "Women, Sex, and Rock 'N' Roll - in their own words", but Liz Evans. It's a great book, interviews with a whole bunch of terrific women.

Like Bjork, for example.

On her image, and the media:

"All this 'Elfin woman, Pixie woman' stuff I get now is some kind of leftover from that (ignorance). Because they decided beforehand, with this imperialistic view of theirs, that (Sugarcubes) were some sort of exotic property from another galaxy. And they couldn't deal with the fact that we were six different individuals who ran our own record company and radio station in Iceland, who managed ourselves all the way through, and who put out a magazine."

On women, and sexism:

"What really pisses me off is not being dealt with by people on an equal level. I'm a housewife from Iceland and I like to write and sing songs. You either like it or you don't. But it gets blurred and changed into something it's not, it pisses me off. Women are just not allowed to be characters. A man is allowed to be scruffy or a hunk, or a Woody Allen or an Albert Einstein, and still be accepted as 100 per cent man. But if a woman hasn't got a certain figure or doesn't make an effort to remain on a level which is considerent feminine, she isn't in the game.

If you had a woman who was the equivalent of Woody Allen, charming, brilliant and with her own personality, she'd be nowhere."

Man, Bjork rocks. I've loved Bjork for so long. I even had all her albums from Kukl and Tappi Tikarras, and I was looking for the debut she did when she was 12, but then I felt like I was going too fan-dom geek, so I burned most of it to cd and sold it all.

It's really important to me to not get all fan-dom. It seems to take up too much time and make you lose sight of what's important and who's important and what needs doing. I don't know if that makes any sense. It also seems to be like tunnel vision, of a sort. If you get all focussed on one thing, then you can't do all the others. You don't even know all the others exist. It's like going to a restaurant and always getting the same thing - you're missing out on everything else on the menu.

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I've found a plan for the move that has REALLY calmed me down, and almost deleted all my stress. These are the things I realized yesterday:

1) my friend Leigh told me that her company pays ~35 000 for customer support personnel
2) that company always is looking for customer support people (it's permanently on their website)
3) job postings there are internally exhibited for 2 weeks before going public

So.

I wrote up a possible budget, assuming Andrew gets a job that offers only 20 hours a week at $7/hr, and we can do it.

So my last ditch effort plan is this: If nothing job wise comes through, I apply for a position as a support person, move to Waterloo, and wait for QA postings while I get all the bills paid with the support job.

Comments

[plinko.livejournal.com]

I AM THE OBNOXIOUS FANGIRL OF YOUR JOURNAL!!!

I'll be posting the fanfic soon.

j/k

[hukuma.livejournal.com]

Tapeheads is kind of funny... but it's soo bad! It's really only for hardcore Cusack or Robbins (or both) fans, IMO.

H&R block sucks; they don't actually understand any more than you do about how to do taxes. All the reports I have say that if your taxes are at all complicated, they refuse to do it. But good luck with that in any case....

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

hey, thanks. If it doesn't work, I'll figure something out... also if they try to charge me too much money. I'd rather stumble through it myself, no matter how hard it is, than pay $200 for someone else to not be certain how to do it.

[dextra.livejournal.com]

oooooo. kitty moving back to within driving distance. ooooooooooooo