brightbluegirl

Damn.

thetamermaid isn't coming at all.

I think this'll be easier on her, actually. She's going through a lot right now, different things like job interviews, possible new housing, etc etc. I think a vacation would elevate her stress level instead of reduce it. So I'm ok with that. I called her last night and left a message... I hope we get to chat soon.

So I cancelled my days off, and Andrew and I will just have to find something ELSE fun to do. If I don't get some fun soon I might burst. Or worse, go off my diet and exercise plan.

A couple of weeks ago Andrew and I went to a restaurant. This really cute man walked by me... he smiled at me, I smiled at him (I was holding Andrew's hand across the table, so it was obvious I was taken, I think).

He was watching me so intently he walked into a waitress.

*snicker*

That hasn't happened to me in years.

My manager didn't have a good morning yesterday morning. He woke up to find out his new puppy had killed a squirrel (poor squirrel :( ), and when he went to clean up the squirrel, the puppy and an older dog ran out the gate. He got the puppy back, but then he and his wife had to go driving for the older dog. When they finally got back from that, he realized the puppy had peed ALL OVER HIM.

I tried to be supportive, but I was laughing too hard.

(but the poor squirrel!)

Andrew took me for sushi yesterday. We should have stayed home and eaten something there, but instead we went for a nice walk down to nob hill and had yummy sushi.

I kind of needed it. This lack of fun thing is really getting me down.

Maybe it's just today. Last night, right before bed, I started feeling sick. I slept with a bucket next to me, but I didn't puke. This morning, I don't feel so sick, but I *am* tired.

I always get down when I'm tired.

Lately I feel as if I've been tired all the time. Like, even when I'm not tired, I'm only less tired than usual.

I don't think it's true, I think I just need some of that fun I keep talking about. I'm tired of being so god damned responsible all the time. And going off my diet for a couple of days that time didn't help. I need something better. Bigger. Happier. Funner.

I had a neat dream last night that I was a wizard. I had a cool robe and everything. I had a team of people that I was with. I walked into the bad guy's lair, and he had 3 wizards try to throw magic at me. The magic looked like balls of energy. I took the balls into me and got stronger and stronger. I threw magic at them so they'd throw magic at me. Then I went up to him, eating some balls of magic while I did so (they were crunchy), and leered at him and offered to come over to his side (it felt very sexual). He told me to use this robot he had. My team and I went and got the robot running with the intention of using it against the bad guy (since I was obviously lying to the bad guy).