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[brightbluegirl]

I am not feeling the love today.

Silly, irrational reasons, the most of it, except:

This guy at work escalated a discussion with me into an argument. Quickly escalated. I tried to de-escalate, he didn't want to. So I said "I don't need an argument with you" and picked up a call.

But it made my stomach hurt. And I don't want to talk to him. And I don't want to go over to his area of the room. I just want him away.

I hate this shit.

My tummy doesn't feel good at all.

This is the guy that is seriously attitude-ridden. I've been nice to him since I got here, but he called me a racist once. I mean, it doesn't matter what I do. Everyone (EVERYONE) hates his low work ethic and his bad attitude, but I've been nice to him even so. Even when he takes 2 calls to my 30, or answers 1 help mail to my 5. That's fine. I've been polite and nice.

And now *I'm* the one with the tummy that hurts and the desperate want to go home and be away from here.

And Andrew's at work and Justyna cancelled and we don't have anyone to hang out with and I just want a real honest to god HUG from someone who cares about me and I want to go home NOW and and and...

Comments

[thetamermaid.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry sweetie. i do want to come visit but i don't want to be stopped at the airport cause i'm from toronto and i don't want to get sick cause i'm too stressed out (and i am - stressed out, that is).
i hope your evening goes better than your day. in the meantime, i send you hearts <3 <3 <3 as well as a couple of robot hearts E> E> (the latter are super-special).

here's hoping your day will get better.

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

It's ok, I don't resent you for it or anything! Of course I'm sad you won't be here, but I'm not mad at you or anything. It was mostly just another straw on the camel's back, as it were.

[thinktink.livejournal.com]

big ((hugs)) - I want a hug in person too.

[(Anonymous)]

*HUGE HUGS* times infinity. It'll get better L, I promise. ~Janie