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[brightbluegirl]

I am pms'ing really badly this week.

It's because I decided to do this "permission to eat and not exercise as much" thing.

It was a BAD IDEA. I shouldn't have done it this week.

I have binged and binged and binged. I've been depressed. I've had stress dreams every night. I'm extremely bloated. I GAINED 5 LBS.

Although I'm pretty sure the majority of that is water, I feel like shit even so.

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Good things this "weekend"

• We watched Beverly Hills Cop I and III on Tuesday night. III is pretty bad, but fun anyway. We made beer battered fish and onion rings, and had watermelon.


• We went to a flea market yesterday and got
  
  
  
  1. A hard shell blue suitcase for $2
  
  
  2. A garlic press for $1
  
  
  3. A beautiful, gorgeous, real wood old style small table we're now using as a coffee table, for $13
  
  
  
  


• Last night we hung out with our neighbours. We had sushi, then went to Target and spent HOURS wandering around and looking at stuff. We had so much fun. On several occasions I laughed so hard I could barely stand up. They are so much fun to hang out with in these ways... She and I got really silly in cutesy kid ways, we found STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE paraphenalia (I was good, I didn't get any, no matter how much they reminded me of my childhood), we wandered through ALL the aisles, I found an awesome star hangy candleholder thing for only $10.50 (they're usually so very expensive, I just HAD to snatch it up), and I got a pair of shorts and a tank top, and we got the kittens a toy. It was awesome fun. Afterwards we drove out to Krispy Kreme and Andrew and I finally had our first Krispy Kreme experience. They give you FREE DONUTS! You show up, they give you free donuts, then you buy some. Total wierd. But awesome. They were good. The boys ate 4 each - I ate 2 and felt grossly overfull. Andrew has 4 left for his lunch.

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I got a rejection letter from another company, and I got depressed again. Of course, the pms didn't help. But I want a job so bad, that I keep feeling that EVERYTHING we want hinges on me getting a job. And that's not so true, but it's how I feel. Back up plan and everything, I'm frightened. I'm out and out SCARED.

Life goes on.

Comments

[plinko.livejournal.com]

We don't have a Krispy Kreme -store- here, but they have begun to put Krispy Kreme kiosks inside of convenience stores. I'm always afraid of their donuts though. The color and texture always reminds me of what burnt skin or flesh wounds look like after they begin to heal...

[bethie8888.livejournal.com]

Man oh man, I always lose control over my eating when I'm pms'ing. I've tried hating myself for it and then also giving myself permission - and neither works. I still wouldn't mind just sleeping out the whole pms thing in a coma.....but I guess that's not really dealing with it :)

[(Anonymous)]

Mmmmmm, Krispy Kreme. My brother is a maniac about them, having several in a sitting, but I can only have one (or, sometimes, two) before the sugar content renders me like something akin to Speedy Gonzales, if he had to stay still all the time, without burning off his energy. Vibratey.

Yay for working passwords! 'Bout Lou. . . I do wonder if sitting him down and talking to him would do anything (much). I don't know that I mean enough to him to cause him to change for me. *shrug* I will try, though.

Stupid OD. Jane wrote, and I can't access her diary. Grrrr. ~ Youmna