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[brightbluegirl]

So.

I asked Cam to look at my resume, make sure everything looks ok, and get back to me by the weekend so I could apply to my weekly jobs with a spiffy new resume.

He sent it back saying it looked really good, EXCEPT he'd fixed a title that had somehow been bulletted!!! Aarrrghhh!!!!!!!!

I've been sending out resumes for QUALITY ASSURANCE jobs with a physical PROBLEM in them.

Fuckity.

And this was after that time I found out my resume had editting markup on it

So I thought to myself "Shit, ok, well, I've been getting responses anyway, so now I'll just keep going with my life. These 4 jobs I'm looking at applying to this week look really good, so I'll just be glad I've got that fixed!"

So I applied to the 4 jobs, a happy girl because I had my spiffy fixed resume, and Cam had said he liked the way I did it, and everything.

For a lark, after applying, I went back and looked at my resume, and the now-unbulleted titled was UNITALICIZED when it was supposed to be ITALICIZED!!!!!!

Aaaaarrrrrgggghhhhhhhhh.

*sigh*

Ok. So that's not as obvious as the bullet. Maybe I won't have fucked up all those chances.

Theoretically now my resume is just fine. I have NEVER had that sort of resume trouble before. I don't know why my eye has been so blind this time before.

God damn. I hope I didn't fuck everything up.

Excuse me, I'm going to go pore over my resume with a fine toothed comb.

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Edit: 10 minutes later: I found something else wrong, too. Fuck it all. This depresses me, and makes me feel like I don't DESERVE to get one of these jobs.

Comments

[malaka.livejournal.com]

Don't worry. I'm the same way you are, the little things like that drive me nuts. When I see them, I think that whoever wrote it isn't smart enough to fix the mistakes. But you know what? 99.9% of the population are NOT like us, they don't notice, and if they do... they don't care. I used to do webdesign for a living, but I stopped because I was WAY too meticulous.. about things that nobody else would notice. Don't worry.

The job market is tough right now, don't think that you aren't a good candidate for all these jobs.. you are, there are just tons of people out there looking. Hang in there, something will come soon.

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[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the nice words - I'm really stressed out about this job search - unreasonably so. I have a job now, we have savings precisely for after the move in case things go awry...

I just have a dream and I desperately want it to come true, and I'm placing too much pressure on myself as a result - when I KNOW there are always alternative methods of getting results.

But thanks, you're right, I need to stop beating myself up over this.

[thetamermaid.livejournal.com]

you are hard-working, a team player and you know the q.a. job inside and out. you know i try not to use the word deserve but you are sooooo far from not deserving an interesting q.a. job where they treat you well that i won't say any more on the subject.

resume errors are really common, i redo my resume every six months and improve on it. at the time, i always feel bad about the previous version. the reality is that i need to keep coming back to it and looking for stuff to make it better. and each time i look at it fresh, there are improvements i can make... don't let the process get you down.

surprisingly little of the job search process has to do with what you do (this really blows me away). don't beat yourself up over little things. they do not reflect who you are as a person or as an employee. stay positive; your resume is better now and you've learned from the process. hey, that makes you even more employable!

and remember, a job search is really stressful. make sure you admit that to yourself and add the appropriate amount of down time into your schedule to compensate. go, l., go!

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[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

Thanks, j. Yeah, I am REALLY stressed. Most stressors I can deal with, but this one is freaking me out. After all, with this job I need to support Andrew, too. He's got a savings account to go to Uni with, but I'll be paying the living expenses...

Blah blah. So I'm stressed, you're right, I need to go easy on myself about this.

Thanks for the support, you rock.