it's 5am I might be lonely...

[brightbluegirl]

I have been awake since 2am. I finally decided to get up and do stuff until I actually feel sleepy.

Usually when my reverse insomnia hits, I get tense and frustrated. This time, however, it's been quite the relaxed and enjoyable experience. Well, so far as insomnia goes.

Yesterday when I woke up my ears were quite plugged up. By the end of the day, every step I took made these pounding sounds in my ears, so we decided to go to Walgreens and get me a decongestant and antihistamine to try to reduce the liquid.

After quite some time, we found Claritin-D. I didn't want an analgesic, I didn't need an expectorant, and I didn't want something that caused drowsiness (since we'll be driving tomorrow). Claritin-D has exactly what I wanted - plus it's non-drowsy (without caffiene, which we all know makes me puke). They're even 24 hr pills.

Unfortunately, "non-drowsy" apparently also means "unable to sleep".

And this is totally gross - the liquid that this decongestant/antihistamine is helping to reduce from my ears DRAINED FROM MY EYES.

That's right. For the past 6 1/2 hours I have had eyes that are weeping this thickish mucus-y liquid. And I KNOW it's from my ears, because my ears are feeling better.

EW!

(I know, you all REALLY wanted to know that)

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Things I have learned in the past 5 years

• Never date boys I meet on the subway.


• Never date boys that people I respect broke up with - they probably had a reason for it.


• If I happen to have sex with a boy a friend of mine recently broke up with, for GODS SAKE, DON'T WRITE ABOUT IT IN A PUBLIC JOURNAL ENTRY. Especially if my friend reads that journal. It doesn't matter how much they said they were over that boy, they're never ready to hear about it.


• It feels good to move my body.


• If I don't like somebody after several years of knowing him, he probably isn't good enough for my friend to date/marry, and I really should tell her my concerns.


• Drugs (including alcohol, nicotine, caffiene, shrooms and ecstacy) don't react well with my body, so it's best if I have very little of them, if at all (you know, I can have a glass of wine and feel nice, but even one shroom and I'll be a vomitting fool). And I don't feel like I'm missing anything.


• I tend to be more intelligent than the people I work with - even the ones I respect - and that's ok.


• I have an extremely short concentration span because I think so quickly, and that means I change the subject quicker than other people, I lose patience quickly, and I think of new things to do quicker than Andrew or my friends. And that's ok too. Except that I want to work on my patience.


• I tend to avoid confrontation when I don't see anything useful coming out of it - even if the other person is blatantly wrong.


• I need at least 7 1/2 hours of sleep a night, preferably 8 1/2.


• I am monogamous.


• Even though I respect someone for being subversive when they're mainstream, they're still mainstream.


• I have a hard time admitting to other people I did something wrong, even when I've admitted it to myself.


• And yet when people say things about me that are bad, and untrue, no matter how crazy the statements may be, I second-guess myself and question myself for days.


• I take things personally.


• I like constantly working on myself to improve.


• I'm really, really, REALLY cool.

Comments

[thetamermaid.livejournal.com]

I'm really, really, REALLY cool.
well, i've known that for quite sometime... *wink* i actually mean it, though. and the fact that you can perceive all these things about yourself makes it even better.

Even though I respect someone for being subversive when they're mainstream, they're still mainstream.
i'm struggling with a knee-jerk reaction to this one. i'll start by asking what the word 'mainstream' means to you, and what that implies. i'm trying to get at why the word had negative overtones when you use it... and that comes down to what it means to you.

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

In particular, I learned this because of Oprah Winfrey. More mainstream, one cannot get, since the mainstream is defined by popular culture and media darlings. However, she activiely encourages literacy, actively encourages people doing good things for other people, and when the war started, did a number of shows on the people of Iraq, trying to get her viewers to see that they were real people instead of objectified as those "horrible people who need to be bombed to the ground"

However, on buying her magazine, it had all the same articles and ads saying "be thin, wear makeup, you need to be perfect to be accepted" and things like that.

So I learned that just because I respect someone for something, doesn't mean they have all the same beliefs that I do.

In theory, mainstream isn't bad. I'm not talking about someone who likes popular music, or who dresses in a particular way, or even who is a Conservative or believes in marriage or Christianity.

Does that help? :-)

[bethie8888.livejournal.com]

And its all from experience too. If you had taken this list and gave it to yourself 10 years ago....what would your reaction have been? (grin)

[plinko.livejournal.com]

I wish I was a quick thinker, but I am okay with the fact that I am not. Its not that I am dumb, I think, just that I want to look at everything from a million different angles and analyze and re-analyze until I have decided I am 100% satisfied. Also, I am not very good in conversations, I think, because by the time I have decided upon the point I want to make and how I want to make it, the conversation has moved on.

Oh well. :D If you have any tips, I'd appreciate them!

[freakykitten.livejournal.com]

I WISH I had tips, but I don't. The only thing I know for sure about this subject is that quick thinking has nothing to do with intelligence. I know lots of extremely bright people who think slower.

My only thought - I used to get "writer's block" when I was in conversations, because I'd feel as if I was on the spot, and I would just clam up. It was when I realized that none of it was important or earth-shattering that I relaxed about things like that, and was able to hold my own in a conversation.