I miss you
Sep. 12th, 2003 01:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brightbluegirlOh, how I've missed you all!
I've been working since Monday, but am very uncomfortable about writing in lj while at work. As a contractor, I keep thinking about how much I need to impress them in order to get my contract renewed.
Or in other words, how much DO I need to impress them in order to get my contract renewed?
One of the problems is that all the computers here are around the outside of the room, with the monitor facing the middle, and everyone in the room who looks can see what I'm doing. I don't want to give a bad impression. So I've stayed away from lj, and barely done email, even though Cam says that it's ok, as a contractor, to do these things.
I've decided we're just going to have to buy a gosh darned computer soonish, and then shop around for some affordable internet or something, so I can write at home and read everyone's diaries.
Speaking of which, I just got caught up on everyone, and then I started work and you all wrote more, so I'm behind, and I have no idea what's going on in your lives. I hope you're all ok.
Not to mention all the non-lj blogs I read.
John Ritter is dead. Isn't that sad?
Death apparently seems to be inevitable. I'm still working on processing that information. After all, if you can recharge a battery, why can't you recharge a body?
No, really.
I want to live forever. Or at least, for another 100 years or so. As a healthy strong ambulant young woman, thankyouverymuch. I've just got so much I want to do!
But anyway.
Things at home are still good, if unsettled. Andrew's taking on the decorating/building/painting/etc while I'm working. I'm getting used to the job, and the company. I'm a little rusty in my test script creation skills, but I'm remembering, and things are coming back to me quicker and quicker. The company... well... I'm going to reserve judgement. Every day it feels a little more comfortable.
I've been wearing jeans that (gasp) fit, and fitted shirts to work, and it's a wierd feeling. I feel... good about my appearance. I don't mean "I love this style", but more like "I have an ok body"
I guess I'm not surprised, it's just nice to have that feeling again. I knew that all my oversized falling apart stained clothes weren't good for my morale, but I didn't think a change of clothes would change how I feel THIS much.
So, to work at the company site, I can wear jeans and long sleeved shirts (because I get the feeling that tattoos aren't so cool to them), or whathaveyou, but at the client site, it's "business casual". However, the client site is 1/2 hour closer to home. Which would give me an hour extra I could use however I wanted, every day. I'll be here at the company site for another couple of weeks or so, and then they'll let us new folks know who's going where. I honestly don't know which I want to do more. It's time vs comfortable.
We'll see.
Other than that, I'm back on my diet, plus every morning I get up and use my elliptical trainer, and there's lots of walking to and from work and our nightly walks (which have been shorter, I admit). I feel mentally tired a lot... I haven't been napping all week, but a couple of naps this weekend should help me feel a bit more with it. (Even a person who embraces change needs some time to feel settled, I guess) We went to see the Weakerthans in concert on Wednesday night, they were AWESOME, as was the opening punk band "Billy the kid and the lost boys" (Billy the kid is a girl! Who plays the guitar! And sings! Like WAILS!! W00t!)
I've been thinking lots of things, lots and lots... I can't possibly begin here, now, though. Hopefully I'll be able to write regularly again soon.
I've been working since Monday, but am very uncomfortable about writing in lj while at work. As a contractor, I keep thinking about how much I need to impress them in order to get my contract renewed.
Or in other words, how much DO I need to impress them in order to get my contract renewed?
One of the problems is that all the computers here are around the outside of the room, with the monitor facing the middle, and everyone in the room who looks can see what I'm doing. I don't want to give a bad impression. So I've stayed away from lj, and barely done email, even though Cam says that it's ok, as a contractor, to do these things.
I've decided we're just going to have to buy a gosh darned computer soonish, and then shop around for some affordable internet or something, so I can write at home and read everyone's diaries.
Speaking of which, I just got caught up on everyone, and then I started work and you all wrote more, so I'm behind, and I have no idea what's going on in your lives. I hope you're all ok.
Not to mention all the non-lj blogs I read.
John Ritter is dead. Isn't that sad?
Death apparently seems to be inevitable. I'm still working on processing that information. After all, if you can recharge a battery, why can't you recharge a body?
No, really.
I want to live forever. Or at least, for another 100 years or so. As a healthy strong ambulant young woman, thankyouverymuch. I've just got so much I want to do!
But anyway.
Things at home are still good, if unsettled. Andrew's taking on the decorating/building/painting/etc while I'm working. I'm getting used to the job, and the company. I'm a little rusty in my test script creation skills, but I'm remembering, and things are coming back to me quicker and quicker. The company... well... I'm going to reserve judgement. Every day it feels a little more comfortable.
I've been wearing jeans that (gasp) fit, and fitted shirts to work, and it's a wierd feeling. I feel... good about my appearance. I don't mean "I love this style", but more like "I have an ok body"
I guess I'm not surprised, it's just nice to have that feeling again. I knew that all my oversized falling apart stained clothes weren't good for my morale, but I didn't think a change of clothes would change how I feel THIS much.
So, to work at the company site, I can wear jeans and long sleeved shirts (because I get the feeling that tattoos aren't so cool to them), or whathaveyou, but at the client site, it's "business casual". However, the client site is 1/2 hour closer to home. Which would give me an hour extra I could use however I wanted, every day. I'll be here at the company site for another couple of weeks or so, and then they'll let us new folks know who's going where. I honestly don't know which I want to do more. It's time vs comfortable.
We'll see.
Other than that, I'm back on my diet, plus every morning I get up and use my elliptical trainer, and there's lots of walking to and from work and our nightly walks (which have been shorter, I admit). I feel mentally tired a lot... I haven't been napping all week, but a couple of naps this weekend should help me feel a bit more with it. (Even a person who embraces change needs some time to feel settled, I guess) We went to see the Weakerthans in concert on Wednesday night, they were AWESOME, as was the opening punk band "Billy the kid and the lost boys" (Billy the kid is a girl! Who plays the guitar! And sings! Like WAILS!! W00t!)
I've been thinking lots of things, lots and lots... I can't possibly begin here, now, though. Hopefully I'll be able to write regularly again soon.
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Date: 2003-09-12 01:19 pm (UTC)Good to hear from you, I totally understand not wanting to LJ at work where people can see. Computer at home.. damned fine idea though ;)
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Date: 2003-09-12 01:31 pm (UTC)