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[brightbluegirl]

Last night, instead of the healthy vegetarian taco dinner that Andrew had made, we ate Rold Gold honey-wheat pretzel twists and two-bite brownies.

The funny thing is, I'm pretty sure I stayed within my calorie limit for the week, since the past two days I hadn't eaten more than 1350 calories.

I just needed a break. I wanted to eat an unhealthy dinner and be damned with it. Oh, and watch tv.

It was a good time. The tv was pretty bad (4 visible useful channels, some with more static than others, makes for not so many viewing choices), until, of course, 10pm when we kept switching between "Judging Amy" and "Law and Order: SVU".

I admit, I like Judging Amy. Strong female leads everywhere. Who aren't afraid of aging. I like it!

So we went to bed 1/2 hour later than my bedtime. I slept poorly, and then my last dream before waking was a dream that I didn't get any sleep, because we were doing things and then when I settled down to sleep, Malaka came in with some costumes for Andrew. Oh yes, and Andrew wouldn't turn his music off.

Malaka, you were in *two* of my dreams last night! I don't remember them very well though. :(

And a funny thing is, that although Aaron used to fall asleep to music, and Alex required the tv on at all times (no, really, ALL times), Andrew is the first man I've been with on a long term basis who understands my need for quiet when I sleep.

It was impossible for me to get up and do my workout this morning after waking up from a dream of being incredibly tired. I felt guilty, but what am I to do? I'm going to go for a brisk walk at lunch, and my plan is to work out tonight. I might have to switch to nightly workouts all week, but I *will* get my workouts in.

In other news, Andrew's brother is coming to visit for the weekend. He's going to get here on Thursday afternoon (evening? we're still not clear on specifics), and leave Tuesday morning.

Andrew has 2 brothers, this is the middle brother, who turned 19 this year. He's a "wigger" (does everyone know that term? Wannabe nigger, White nigger, either term works for me). Only he still speaks as he was raised (partly because he has a slight speech impediment - Andrew describes it as his brain having a problem telling his mouth how to talk). He's a good kid. I think it'll be ok, but I'm not super looking forward to it. I'm sure it will be good, but I'm not used to people not close to me sharing my home.

My home is sacred space!

I also don't know him well, so I don't know what he'll expect, or what he'll require. I think we're going to actually have to have cows milk in the fridge and cereal in the cupboard, for one. And will he be expecting to be able to watch a lot of tv? Will he want to go out drinking, now that he's of age? I really don't know what to expect. Not to mention the fact that I am going to have to wear NIGHTCLOTHES for 5 whole DAYS!!!! AND close the bathroom door when I get up to pee during the night. (oh yes, it's so rough)

I do want to be a good influence on him though. I think he needs one, now that Andrew has moved out. And like I said, he's a good kid.

Andrew's supposed to leave on the 2nd to do a movie. He'll be gone until the 14th, missing (Canadian) Thanksgiving. Unfortunately, we still haven't heard from the Director guy with confirmation about tickets, so I don't know what's going on. I do know ticket prices have gone up (my advice, ALWAYS buy your tickets at least 2 weeks in advance for best pricing), he can't be happy about that.

I'm going to miss Andrew a LOT (who will protect me from the scary night demons?), but it'll be nice to have some alone time.

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I'm the costume fairy!!