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brightbluegirlLast night I dreamed that aviatrix killed herself. She'd been very depressed, and decided to end it. I was trying to confirm if she'd died by checking her journal, but the office was very busy, so it was taking a long time. I wanted to tell Kurt, but didn't want to tell him if it wasn't true, cuz I knew he'd be upset. But things were so hectic at the office, the dream ended before I knew for sure.
Interesting, considering that when Aviatrix dreams of someone dying, that means marriage.
When I dream of death, sometimes it means great change, and sometimes it means nothing.
Who can tell?
I have a friend that I need to be honest about, regarding how I feel about her living situation right now, and that I'm worried about her health (emotional and physical). I've been putting it off.
I know that I need to be honest with her - I wasn't honest with her about how her husband treated her, and then when they (finally) broke up, she told me all these horrible things that he did to her (he raped her anally, he treated her like shit, he tried to force her to do all these horrible horrible horrible things), I felt like a terrible friend, because maybe if I'd said something, she would have left him earlier. I think that people tend to stay with bad partners when they think that their friends like the partner (it must be me, I must be the problem, they like him/her, so it must be me). I know I felt that way, with the asshole.
And maybe she'd leave the bad situation she's in, if she knew that I felt it was bad and was worried about her.
But I'm worried that she'll think bad things of me for saying so.
And that feels pretty juvenile, and dammit, I'm all about the truth, but we've known each other since we were 13, and I really don't want to lose her.
Bleh. Insecurity bad. Honesty good. End of story.
Work has been CRAZY so far today. And of course one of the people I had to deal with was an asshole. Yelling at me like it's my fault that his internet is down. What the fuck ever.
I appear to be fighting off a cold. I've been coughing whenever I do something active, I've been mucusy at times, and sneezy, and far more tired than usual. Last night I went to bed at 9:30, and slept through until 7 this morning. Although I feel super dorky, It also feels decadent and relaxing to sleep long times like that.
Interesting, considering that when Aviatrix dreams of someone dying, that means marriage.
When I dream of death, sometimes it means great change, and sometimes it means nothing.
Who can tell?
I have a friend that I need to be honest about, regarding how I feel about her living situation right now, and that I'm worried about her health (emotional and physical). I've been putting it off.
I know that I need to be honest with her - I wasn't honest with her about how her husband treated her, and then when they (finally) broke up, she told me all these horrible things that he did to her (he raped her anally, he treated her like shit, he tried to force her to do all these horrible horrible horrible things), I felt like a terrible friend, because maybe if I'd said something, she would have left him earlier. I think that people tend to stay with bad partners when they think that their friends like the partner (it must be me, I must be the problem, they like him/her, so it must be me). I know I felt that way, with the asshole.
And maybe she'd leave the bad situation she's in, if she knew that I felt it was bad and was worried about her.
But I'm worried that she'll think bad things of me for saying so.
And that feels pretty juvenile, and dammit, I'm all about the truth, but we've known each other since we were 13, and I really don't want to lose her.
Bleh. Insecurity bad. Honesty good. End of story.
Work has been CRAZY so far today. And of course one of the people I had to deal with was an asshole. Yelling at me like it's my fault that his internet is down. What the fuck ever.
I appear to be fighting off a cold. I've been coughing whenever I do something active, I've been mucusy at times, and sneezy, and far more tired than usual. Last night I went to bed at 9:30, and slept through until 7 this morning. Although I feel super dorky, It also feels decadent and relaxing to sleep long times like that.
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Date: 2002-09-16 04:18 pm (UTC)we won't even BEGIN to get into my personal life, now, will we...