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brightbluegirlYet another entire morning (and most of the afternoon) where I've been a good working girl.
Unfortunately, my motivation is flagging. I'm almost done my test plan, and I had told my technical lead that I would send it to him tomorrow so he could look at it at his leisure while I'm in Ontario for Birthday Weekend #2. Then I discovered that if I set my mind to it, I can finish it today.
Well Hell. I don't FEEL like finishing it today, cuz then what would I do tomorrow??
Well, ok, I have something I could do tomorrow.
But then... but then... well... I'd have to work hard for the rest of the day today!!
So you can see my dilemma.
Heh.
Lots of people said nice things about my impending commitment ceremony with Andrew. Thanks!
I feel almost guilty for talking about it the way that I did. I really don't subscribe to the ideas of marriage, be those heterosexist ideas, or religious, or what have you.
I just want to celebrate finding someone that I have chosen to spend my life with. I want to do it in a meaningful, symbolic, sweet, easy (and cheap) way, and I want to have a party afterwards.
Because it IS a celebration.
But we've already chosen each other. The commitment won't be new to us - we're already committed to each other. It'll just be a public affirmation of the commitment.
But yes, I required that he ask, when he was ready to do so, to confirm that he isn't just being railroaded by me and my wishes and goals. And he did write me a song, and we did tell family (my brother and mother already knew some of our plans), and we have chosen some things that are traditionally symbolic of "marriage", but ...
Do you know what I mean?
Ooooh I got really mad last night. We went to bed an hour early to make up for sleeping poorly the night before, but then around 3am Andrew was coughingcoughingcoughingcoughing until I finally asked him if he'd taken any cough syrup, and when he said he hadn't, I told him to, because I wanted to sleep. (YES, I AM THAT UNSENSITIVE TO MY PARTNER'S NEEDS, SO THERE)
Then I woke up at 6am for no good reason whatsoever, and got mad at him for not being proactive enough to take some cough syrup when he was coughing, and waiting for 5 hours until I told him to!
Well, it turns out that he'd only been coughing for 10 minutes (or at least, that's what he thinks), so I didn't lose as much sleep as I thought. I got mad for nothing!
Tomorrow night I get on a plane to Ontario! W00t! In preparation for that I need to:
Easy as pie! (Mmmmmm, pie)
Now what REALLY got me freaked out was that this morning when I woke up I had a cough and a sore throat. The cough has gone away. The sore throat has, mostly, too.
I CANNOT BE SICK. I REFUSE TO BE SICK. I AM TOOOOOO MUCH LOOKING THE FORWARD TO WEEKEND THIS!!!!
Aaaaaaaagggghhhh send me healthy vibes, please please!
Unfortunately, my motivation is flagging. I'm almost done my test plan, and I had told my technical lead that I would send it to him tomorrow so he could look at it at his leisure while I'm in Ontario for Birthday Weekend #2. Then I discovered that if I set my mind to it, I can finish it today.
Well Hell. I don't FEEL like finishing it today, cuz then what would I do tomorrow??
Well, ok, I have something I could do tomorrow.
But then... but then... well... I'd have to work hard for the rest of the day today!!
So you can see my dilemma.
Heh.
Lots of people said nice things about my impending commitment ceremony with Andrew. Thanks!
I feel almost guilty for talking about it the way that I did. I really don't subscribe to the ideas of marriage, be those heterosexist ideas, or religious, or what have you.
I just want to celebrate finding someone that I have chosen to spend my life with. I want to do it in a meaningful, symbolic, sweet, easy (and cheap) way, and I want to have a party afterwards.
Because it IS a celebration.
But we've already chosen each other. The commitment won't be new to us - we're already committed to each other. It'll just be a public affirmation of the commitment.
But yes, I required that he ask, when he was ready to do so, to confirm that he isn't just being railroaded by me and my wishes and goals. And he did write me a song, and we did tell family (my brother and mother already knew some of our plans), and we have chosen some things that are traditionally symbolic of "marriage", but ...
Do you know what I mean?
Ooooh I got really mad last night. We went to bed an hour early to make up for sleeping poorly the night before, but then around 3am Andrew was coughingcoughingcoughingcoughing until I finally asked him if he'd taken any cough syrup, and when he said he hadn't, I told him to, because I wanted to sleep. (YES, I AM THAT UNSENSITIVE TO MY PARTNER'S NEEDS, SO THERE)
Then I woke up at 6am for no good reason whatsoever, and got mad at him for not being proactive enough to take some cough syrup when he was coughing, and waiting for 5 hours until I told him to!
Well, it turns out that he'd only been coughing for 10 minutes (or at least, that's what he thinks), so I didn't lose as much sleep as I thought. I got mad for nothing!
Tomorrow night I get on a plane to Ontario! W00t! In preparation for that I need to:
- Buy some wrapping paper
- Buy a cheap tupperware
- Make my tattooist's favourite cookies
- Wrap Aaron's birthday presents
- Pack (including the cookies, in the tupperware)
- And of course, work out
- Edit: And call Justyna! I MUST call Justyna!!!
Easy as pie! (Mmmmmm, pie)
Now what REALLY got me freaked out was that this morning when I woke up I had a cough and a sore throat. The cough has gone away. The sore throat has, mostly, too.
I CANNOT BE SICK. I REFUSE TO BE SICK. I AM TOOOOOO MUCH LOOKING THE FORWARD TO WEEKEND THIS!!!!
Aaaaaaaagggghhhh send me healthy vibes, please please!
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Date: 2003-10-22 03:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-10-23 06:11 am (UTC)ZZZZZZZZZZZZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP!
Date: 2003-10-23 07:01 am (UTC)it's going to drive me nuts knowing that you're so nearby, and yet i can't get down to see you.
this is pouty d.
;{
when you're half awake in the middle of the night, being awoken by someone spreading contagion and hurting themselves by not taking care of a cough, it is not insensitive. sure, it'd be a grand gesture were you to actually go and get the cough syrup, but yeesh... people need to take care of themselves!
especially whiny bois with colds.
Re: ZZZZZZZZZZZZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP!
Date: 2003-10-23 09:37 pm (UTC)Vibes
Date: 2003-10-23 11:06 am (UTC)Best I could do. . . I wanted to make them squiggly, 'cause that's how I imagine mental vibes to be, but I don't think there's a tag for that. ~ Youmna