family cycles

[brightbluegirl]

The weekend ended horribly. I broke down and cried, and then yesterday (when I wasn't there to defend myself), my mother told my brother that I am abusive, manipulative, and a bully. She said she walks on eggshells around me, and that I probably didn't even apologize for "freaking out" (which would be me crying because the atmosphere was so bad).

My brother was too scared to defend me.

I am very angry, and very sad, and still can't put everything into words, or I'd tell you more specifics. I have to figure out how to deal with this without causing another years-long rift with my crazy, wacked out, reality changing mother.